Friday, March 4, 2011
But it's Winter! I have thin blood! And I put this Adventure in the Bowl when I lived in perpetually sunny, "freakishly almost 80 degrees every day" L.A. Now I live in New York City! In fact, I can't even find a photo of winter surfing to go with this post!
(Do you see the rampant use of explanation points?! It's BECAUSE I AM IN DISBELIEF/GIDDY/EXCITED/A LITTLE FREAKED OUT/I THINK THIS WILL BE A LIFETIME MEMORY...SO THAT MIGHT BE AWESOME)
Well, first rule of Adventure Bowl is "no backing out, no excuses" so stay tuned for how I am going to figure out how to take surf lessons in the freezing cold!
What am I getting myself into?!
UPDATE #1 (Friday afternoon)
I found a place to winter surf! Time to plan the road trip!
UPDATE #2 (Saturday early afternoon)
So here I am in New England with not only a free place to stay but a friend who will drive me and my pups back to New York City. I am a lucky, lucky girl.
The only problem is, I am scared, really scared to do this adventure. Here are some of the things I'm feeling:
1) Since I fell and broke my shoulder I have no upper body strength. What if I can't paddle out? Or pull myself up? Or carry a board for that matter?
2) I have this overwhelming need to be good at what I do. I am not going to be good at this. It's hard for me to be vulnerable in front of someone I don't know (instructor). It's hard for me to be patient or easy on myself.
3) Is this a bad time to mention I have a fear of the ocean? I have spoken about it in many posts. I did great with the jet ski adventure but this is different. I've had to be rescued 3 times that I can remember since I was 19. And I was trained as a life guard and spent my life, up until then, swimming in the ocean.
4) Fear, fear, fear. Lack of control. And yes, I find this very ironic as I just wrote a post about fear.
Sitting with all this...